My dream has always been to some day be able to help horses and also help people to understand horses. I have a vision about this very big ranch that is completely fenced so that all of my horses can roam free. I'd love to arrange all kinds of events where people could come and learn about life and themselves with the help of horses.
I have been waiting for a) a jackpot in lottery and b) being ready & able to teach others. A is still very much awaited but I have been worrying alot about section b as I've noticed that the more I learn, the harder it gets to tell anyone about it. It is a very personal journey and the path is forever changing, no two are the same. BUT also I feel like I have begun to feel things more with my heart, and because of that, I don't know what words to use. Many things I just know in my heart to be right or wrong, but I cannot always tell where that knowledge comes from. I believe it comes from horses but is not learned through any particular experience but delivered to me in some other way.
I have noticed several times, when horses approach me with a certain look, I feel my heart beating irregularly. Do you ever get that feeling?
Today I realized that I don't have to be able to teach myself, I would be more than happy just to be able to provide premises for horses to live and people to learn. I do know a lot of people who could come visit and teach me and others. And all my horses could choose to participate if they'd like. Problem solved, now all I need is that jackpot!
(Pics by Marjo Kilgast)
